Hi all. I'm not even sure why I'm writing this. I think I'm bored or it might be somewhat freeing or some nonsense like that.I'm a secret crossdresser. Only one other person knows this...........and had a lot of fun with it. This is no more. I started out very differently. I had an ex-girlfriend who constantly made me wear her g-strings while having sex. It was awkward at first but I would have done anything for her. She also liked anal play and I came to like it also. The years went by and every now and then I'd pull out a g-string and wear it. I liked it. More years went on and I started realizing that I was bisexual with a preference for woman but wanted to experience something with a man. I went online at the time which was limited and found someone on another old site. He was perfect- like me- no intentions of ever 'coming out' and very discreet and like myself- had a lot to loose by doing so. Met up. Very awkward at first and both of us didn't know what to say or do but nature has a way of helping. He had difficulty maintaining an erection. I didn't. Met him a few more times and he had the same problem. He once came to my house after taking something to help with his erection. Man............I loved it. First time I gave oral. Even from day one I enjoyed trying to get as much down my throat as possible, But......this couldn't continue ie having to something to make him hard. I suggested wearing underwear. It worked......very much so. I started buying underwear online- it almost became an addiction. Fishnets, tongs, french underwear, suspender belts, slutty nurse's uniform, leather and pvc gear, chokers, nipple clamps and everything else you could think of. I loved getting dressed up and to be honest- been treated like I looked dressed up- like a slut. It was oddly freeing. All along I kept relationships with woman and continued been with them as much as possible but I also enjoyed this side of me. I think I was greedy. Sadly I cant see that person anymore which is why I'm here I suppose. Looking for like minded people in the hope I get to experience it again.